I want to state some facts before you friend me, okay? Be civil and don't bring unneeded drama. If you defriend me I won't take it personally. This is my journal, and I feel I can post whatever I want in it, so I fangirl squee a lot, and as this is a fandom journal it should be expected. Commenting is not an issue for me. Don't talk about my posts away from here unless I say otherwise.

Sister journal to scandalbaby
Recs located at i wish for a happy ending @ Tumblr
Fandoms For This Journal

• Into manga (mostly Bleach, but also Zombie Loan, Chibi Vampire, Oh! My Goddess, xxxHOLiC, Ouran High School Host Club and more)
• Into anime (once again, mostly Bleach, but I also like Cowboy Bebop, both seasons of Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex and a few others that various others are recommending to me)
• Into comic books (DC over Marvel, way too many individual characters to name, though I have a soft spot for the Big Three and their families, JLA in general, Green Lantern Corps and Renee Montoya)
• Into cartoons (mostly DCAU, nothing really current because of my anime bias)

Also, if you know who made the gif I'm using in this post I'll write you fic. I like to give credit where credit's due.

I think I may be more or less done with the Bleach fandom. Not the manga or my friends here, and not my fics, but the fandom as a whole. There's BS going down at the two big Bleach forums so I'm not seeing any real goodies for the fandom anymore, and then there was this latest round of bleachbigbang which has made me seriously reconsider holding a round 3.

See, when I started round 2.5, I had about ten writers and ten artists sign-up. First mandatory check-in? Four authors checked in. When I asked for summaries? Three authors. Rough drafts? Two authors gave them. So out of all the interest, only two authors and two artists are posting tomorrow. I sent PM after comment after e-mail and got zero response from people who said they were interested.

Then I look at au_bigbang, where I'm one of two co-mods, and we went from about 150 participants to 100 who did the first check-in. The people in that BB are really good about letting us know if they're dropping out or changing fandoms. They're active in helping me advertise. And it doesn't leave me wanting to rip my hair out because we're on the ball with everything. bleachbigbang left a bad taste in my mouth, just like crossbigbang did in round 1. I think when this round is done I'm going to see if someone else wants to take over bleachbigbang. I'll just stick with modding my fic community and bleach_yuri.

Speaking of hyouhakuzai_fic, did I recently tell someone I'd add them to the community? With the new job I got and all of that I completely forgot if I did or not. Tell me and I'll go give you posting access and make a post to the community.

On June 5th, 2012, I'll have been involved in fandom for 14 years.

Started with the Buffyverse, then moved to the CSIverse. Dabbled in Harry Potter and Supernatural and House MD and NCIS and Bones and Castle and Eureka and Criminal Minds and Numb3rs and Heroes and Hawaii Five-0 and The Mentalist and Without A Trace and Doctor Who and Sherlock at least once, some multiple times. Crossed most of these over with at least one other fandom at some point. Settled into the Bleach fandom for a long stretch. Currently writing great big mounds of Wholock fic.

I've written close to 1,000 pieces of fanfic in this time. Maybe more; the site housing my Buffyverse fic got hit with a virus and most of the Yahoo Groups where I posted are gone. I think the last count was a little over 500 stories. But I've written at least 300 CSIverse fic, including a 60 fic series on Danny/Lindsay. Written over 100 Bleach fic, not counting my AUs. Written so many crossovers I've honestly lost count. I create AU series at the drop of a hat, and this is something I'm proud of. I've written over 30 Wholock fic that have been published on Livejournal, with ten still waiting. I have a very long list of WIPS from fandoms I've left. Maybe one day I'll finish them or donate them to those still in the fandom.

I've made wonderful friends on Yahoo Groups and Livejournal and now Tumblr. I am grateful for the people who have come into my life because of fandom; some of them are my best friends, people I trust with my life. Some friendships have remained strong through the years; some fell apart quickly, and some died a sputtering death of neglect. But all the people I've met have left a mark, and I'm glad I've met them.

I've run some great Yahoo Groups. I've run some great Livejournal communities. I still run a few, even in fandoms I'm not active in anymore. I love comeraderie with other fans. I like having a place I can go where I feel welcome and loved and can go "OMG, I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels that way!" There's still many fandoms where I'm in the shipping minority. I always try and create a safe place for fans like me, the ones who love the crossovers and the "weird" pairings and the minor characters. I love being around my fellow fans. The highlight of my year is going to Comic Con International in San Diego, with a nerdy shirt on, looking for my kin.

I've been a fangirl for 14 years in a little less than three weeks, and you know what? I wouldn't trade it for the world. LONG LIVE THE FANGIRLS AND FANBOYS!

(crossposted to scandalbaby)

My thoughts on this week's Bleach can be summed up in one (spoilery) sentence: ( Spoilers... ) Let's hope next week is better.

bleachbigbang is turning into a headache, seriously. I'm debating whether I even want to run a round 3 after this. I'm pulling my hair out with this one, especially compared to au_bigbang which is a million time larger, run on both LJ and Dreamwidth, and has so many fandoms that it's insane. I have a co-mod on that one, and really, all I handled were the 300+ writers signing up and advertising (plus writing two 15K stories for it, which are finished and waiting for my beta).

I hate bitching about the Bleach fandom so much, but if you say ""Yeah, this sounds cool, I want to do it" and then two months later drop without a word, it makes me wonder why I did the round in the first place. I almost dread coming onto this account and having to deal with it.

Another great community that's on hiatus right now for lack of participants is bleachfic. The Bleach icontest community folded, what, a month or two ago? It closed down because no one was participating. Part of me wonders if this is because the anime ended and the end of the manga was announced, and part of me wonders if the fandom is just apathetic in general, It's hard to want to participate in a fandom where no one wants to do anything. I'm on thriving communities on scandalbaby including three land communities. I'd always thought it would be fun to do something like that for Bleach but now I think it would be dead in the water.

Anyway. On the bright side? I think I might write some Bleach fic. unwritten_icons, you want to give me new prompts for the userpic add on thank you? I can't find your old ones anywhere and I tore apart my LJ inbox and e-mail inbox.